The other week, in bible study we began discussing fear. We began going over our fears; many of the women had fears of their husbands leaving them, fears of failure, fears of the future. I began thinking of what my fears where, I constantly self-doubt myself. I always think I am incapable of doing anything. I also have a major fear of gaining weight.
I have always been aware of my weight, my whole life I was always to big or too little. When I finally got to a weight I was comfortable at I found out I was pregnant. Obviously I was super excited to have a baby, we had been married for 3 years, it was time, however I was petrified of gaining and then loosing the weight. I have heard horror stories of people gaining weight, there whole body changing, and never being able to loose the weight.
I gained 30 pounds with Sammy, a normal amount to gain. The first week I lost 15 lbs. I was so excited…then nothing. I last bit of weight stayed on. After my 6 weeks of not being able to workout, I hit the gym and started eating healthy….nothing, the weight stayed on. I blamed breastfeeding for making me hungry, after 9 months I stopped breast feeding…nothing.
I had no cloths that looked good on me, I was puffy and bloated, my muscle tone was gone, my hips where huge…I was a mess. I have not pictures of post pregnant self to share with you of my old body because I was so upset I deleted them all. I new I needed a change. I signed up for the special classes at the gym, I finally had a plan and was so excited to start this journey. I lost a little weight, gained a lot of muscle and bulked up…not what I wanted. I LOVED the gym classes and was so excited to feel fit BUT something wasn’t right. My trainer and I couldn’t pin point what I was doing wrong.
I was desperate to try anything, I was living my fear, not being able to loose the baby weight. I signed up for Beach Body’s 21 Day fix. I thought to myself, what do I have to loose…I started doing the 30minutes workouts, drinking the shakeology, and I felt great. I wasn’t hungry all day, I wasn’t picking on my daughters snacks, and I was working out less. I lost 5 pounds the first round and one dress size! I did another round and it turned into a lifestyle, I kept the weight off and got lean.
I started this blog as a way to continue to track my success, share recipes and workouts. I am still on my journey to get back to my ideal weight. I am so happy with the progress I have made so far that I wanted to share it with you guys. This program helped me to beat my fear. I can lose the weight, be healthy, be fit, and be a momma. Next time I get pregnant I have the ammunition to get fit more quickly.